Future historian.

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 22:21:41 GMT

Oh, fucksticks.
Why can't I do a perfectly good venty-ranty post?
Too polite.
I'm holding it all in.

ANyway, dont expect more posts in this thing. More trouble than it's worth.

If you want to contact me, poke the profile, or someone who knows how to.

Things and stuffage.

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 20:13:56 GMT

So, tomorrow I start my daily commute to Salford university.

Recently I've been thinking about stuff, and I've come close to breaking down and crying. I've realised how isolated I've made myself. I'm usually a rather private person. When I encounter a problem, I usually try and overcome it myself, and it's somewhat hard for me to ask for help. I've hidden how I felt about a lot of things I've done. I've hidden my emotions too much.
After thinking, I've realised I only want one thing, above all others.
I could post it here, but I'm going to decline.

cackles

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 22:29:25 GMT

You scored as Vulcan. You Are Vulcan, You prefer to be alone and learn. You rarely show people what you are feeling. You understand that things take time. Safety is something that usally passes your mind, but you don't always follow it

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Vulcan

85%

Federation

50%

Borg

50%

Cardassian

50%

Ferengi

50%

Romulan

45%

Dominion

35%

Klingon

25%

What Star Trek Species Are You?
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Wed, 06 Sep 2006 20:20:43 GMT

I was going to a big-ass post, but I lost the enthusiasm to do it. Main thing to share is: I leave Lancaster on Sunday 24th September 2006.

A generic breakdown of stuff:

Likelihood of me returning to stay, given current circumstances: Negligible.
Opinion of returning to stay from last year til now: Shit, with some good points.
Number of people needing thanking: A fair few.
-Thanks regarding good things: Few.
-Hate-laced thanks: Some.
-Generic thanks: Several.
Likelihood of my visiting people: Variable.
Likelihood of a big goodbye from me: Negligible.
Likelihood of my missing:
-Lancaster: Average.
-People: Person-dependant.
-Places: Place-dependant.
Number of goodbye messages: Some.
-Good messages: Several
-Other: A few.

Rise and fly kiddies, rise and fly.....

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 00:06:47 GMT

Right, time to get my life in check. Spent too long pissing this fracking Lancastrian sabbatical away. Life's too short for me to be voluntarily locked in my room spending my time being emo and shit, in a town I only came to live in for comfort reasons. Getting into Salford Uni is within my grasp, and I need to wrangle the year 2 guy into getting the ball rolling for me to get in. After that, getting my degree'll be piss easy, because I'm more than capable of doing it.
After that, research. I've got an idea I need, I want, to get into production, whether it be done for an existing company, or under my own steam. Either way, I'm gonnae get it done, hell or high water. After that? Hey, sky's the limit, and then some.

I've spent too much time catering to other peoples' needs.
Screw you guys, I'm doing my own shit.

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 00:18:03 GMT

Today was a good day, and I believe I am officially "da man."

Go, go ego-boosters!

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 19:34:32 GMT

This happened about 20 minutes ago:

While I was walking home from the gym, I was walking past Potts Pies, on Bowerham road, and these two lassies started shouting at me. Things like, "Hey gorgeous," "Sexy beast," and the like, giggling slightly. FOr some reason I paid them no attention. As I was walking away, one of them runs up to me, and slaps my ass, then runs back to her mate, both of them giggling more. I still paid them little attention.

So, Mr. Weasel, you may be the prettiest, but I am the sexiest. :D

Stuff I have done recently:

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 23:07:54 GMT

*Went to an important interview at the Town Hall, alone.
*Joined a gym.
*Exercised at said gym.
*Spent time with Katie.
*Worked.

On the "To Do" list:

*Exercise.
*Work.
*Get more stuff to do.

Fri, 26 May 2006 17:35:53 GMT

Recently I've been poking this motivational poster generator, and thought I'd share what I've made so far.

Photos owned by their respective owners.

Out of all of them, my favorite is the Hero one, followed by Hope and Sanity.

Tue, 23 May 2006 22:43:25 GMT

Thing are quiet in my life at the moment. The only big thing happening is me poking Salford about going there coming academic year to do my final year to finish my degree. The nearest definate thing to be happening to me is my leaving of Lancaster. My feelings on these things? I'm looking forward to them, assuming I get into Salford. I've had my bumps while I've been here, but I'm finding my own path and course to follow.
I'm finding myself thinking on what I'll miss, and what has happened, and what I've done. I could do a list, but I doubt people would want to hear it.
When looking towards the future, I see possibilites abounds. I have hope. I have faith. I have the abilities. I have the vision. I am capable and I am willing. I have someone I can rely on and can talk to and confide in. I've had my good times, and I've had the bad. My life is my own, and no-one, barring deity/deities, can take that way from me as long as I stay true to myself. Most of all, I am alive, with a healthy respect for, and lack of fear of, death. I'm ready.

Mon, 15 May 2006 13:12:13 GMT

The dryer in our house no longer dries. I now have clothes drying in our cold house. I now have to find the nearest laundrette, or go to campus and use one there.
I am now irritated.

Mon, 15 May 2006 00:03:56 GMT

I feel good.
I feel more centered than I have in a long time.
I feel like I have a better grip on my life than I've had in a while.
I feel more in tune with my spirituality.
Things seem to be progressing.
Things are changing.
I'm going where I want to go, being who I want to be.
I feel ready to leave Lancaster.
I want to go out and do something with people before I leave, nearer to when I leave, as a big goodbye.
I feel like being suprised.

Cos I'm curious....

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 11:19:04 GMT

If you had me alone, locked up in your house for twenty-four hours and I had to do whatever you wanted me to, what would you have me do? All comments will be permanently screened because it's a secret. Then repost this in your LJ. You might be surprised with the responses you get.

And yes, responses to this will be kept strictly confidential

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 17:43:25 GMT

Disorder	Your Score
Major Depression:	Very Slight
Dysthymia:	Very Slight
Bipolar Disorder:	Slight-Moderate
Cyclothymia:	Moderate
Seasonal Affective Disorder:	Slight
Postpartum Depression:	N/A
Take the Depression Test

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 10:23:42 GMT

Find your Celestial Choir

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 08:48:26 GMT

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Please repost this if you believe that homophobia is wrong.

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 17:39:19 GMT

You scored as Musical/Rhythmic. You are sensitive to sounds in your environment, enjoy music and prefer listening to music when you study or read. You learn best through melody and music. People like you include singers, conductors, composers, and others who appreciate the various elements of music.

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Musical/Rhythmic

89%

Visual/Spatial

89%

Intrapersonal

68%

Verbal/Linguistic

64%

Logical/Mathematical

61%

Bodily/Kinesthetic

61%

Interpersonal

57%

The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences
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Tue, 28 Mar 2006 20:19:14 GMT

Someone made this image for me. I've been waiting for ages for it to be made as I've not been able to do it myself.

Meme-a-go-go

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 23:28:49 GMT

Yoinked from darkluke

These are the instructions:
Put your iTunes/Winamp/WMP on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song title as the answer to the question.
NO CHEATING.

My answers (feel free to post your interpretations of my answers):
1. How does the world see you?
Why does the sun shine? (The Sun is a mass of incadescent gas) by They Might be Giants.
Looks like I'm seen in a good light, if you'll pardon the pun, and I'm important. :)

2. Will I have a happy life?
Falling Sand by Tim DeBruine
There are things I've done, and some things I dont understand

3. What do my friends think of me?
They Might Be Giants by They Might be Giants
Energetic, random, not entirely sure.

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Englishman in New York by Sting
Yes.

5. How can I make myself happy?
Walk Like an Egyptian by The Bangles
Stargate? Probably means by doing something mundane differently.

6. What should I do with my life?
Rockin' The Suburbs by Ben Folds
Do something to make a difference?

7. Will I ever have children?
When you Dream by Barenaked Ladies
This is a most resoundng yes. I can see myself singing this to my first born son (song uses the male pronoun).

8. What is some good advice for me?
Spitting Games by Snow Patrol
No idea about this one.

9. How will I be remembered?
Video killed the radio star by the buggles
No idea.

10. What's my signature dancing song?
Never is enough by Barenaked Ladies
Yeah, I like dancing to this one.

11. What's my current themesong?
My favorite mistake by SHeryl Crow
"Did you know when you go it's the perfect ending,
to the bad day I'd gotten used to spending.
When you go, all I know is you're my favorite mistake
You're my favorite mistake.

Well maybe nothing lasts forever,
even when you stay together.
I don't need forever after, but it's your laughter won't let me go
so I'm holding on this way."
The idealism of my coming back up to Lancaster has gone. No appeal here for me. Only the fun was keeping me up. I still have the memories.

12. What do others think is my current themesong?
Star Trekkin' by The Firm
Eh, cant really comment.

13. What shall they play at my funeral?
Everything she does is magic by the police
DOnt know what to say about this one

14. What type of girls do I like?
Chocolate by SNow Patrol
See 13.

14b. What type of guys do I like?
You can call me Al by Paul SImon
One's that'll protect me? I dont know.

15. How's my love life?
Leaving Las Vegas by Sheryl Crow
"And I check the odds
And I place my bet
I pour a drink
And I pull the blind
And I wonder what I'll find."
Bascially no idea, hoping for the best.

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 22:57:52 GMT

I'm a dreamer. Always have been. Never been completely sastisfied with things. Always wanted things to be better. Was never fully satisfied with what I had. Aimed for bigger and brighter. Been knocked and battered along the way, but I have kept on wlaking the path laid out in front of me by myself and whatever forces were at work.

Will be leaving Lancaster when my current house contract runs out, which'll be around the end of September this year (06). For how long? As far as I see it, permanently, or at least the forseeable future. Lancaster is just too small for me now. Leave, go back home while finish my degree at another university. When I graduate, I'll look at my situation and see where I should go next. This is the plan I mentioned before.

There's nothing really keeping me in Lancaster. Friends can visit and be visited. No romantic relationships to make me think wice about leaving. If there's anything people wish to say to me, ask me, do to/with me in person, best do it before I leave as I dont know when I will be in Lancaster next.

Shows how much I've changed during my time in Lancaster. Before I came up, I would've had no qualms about leaving and giving no warning to everyone. Now, I know my friends deserve more than that. No bring up the so-called Lancaster "Curse". I was tied to this place before I came, and will continue to be long after I've left. Anyway, as long there's one person in Lancaster who remembers me, it's as though I've never left, hmm?

Regardless of the time on this post, I've been trying to do this post for over an hour.

Two words are appropriate now (prize for who can guess specifics): Aveo amacuse.

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 08:18:40 GMT

I would like to live in a house where:
-my room isn't colder than the landing just outside (seriously, you can feel the temerature difference);
-I dont have to wash/shower i temeratures barely above freezing;
-the double-glazing in my room didnt let in a draft (you can see the curtains move in the breeze, even when the window's closed. I'll admit this'd be good in warm weather, ut not now.);
-the temperature through-out the house wasn't below regulation temperature. (I dont know if this is still true for this house, but most certainly feels like it);
Edit to add:
-the house was central heated;
-the heater in my room didnt need 2 days off after being on about 3 days.

So basically, I'm freezing and dont want to live here. It's not the housemates, they've been great, it's the house itself. I like my hands being naturally warm, not having to rub my fingers every minute or two to warm them up.

Snooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow!

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 14:36:39 GMT

I have just built a snowman. Something I havent done in many years. It's a four tier snowman, and I did it all by myself. He's called Dave, he's a barbarian, and he likes kittens snowglobes and going for walks in the rain. He doesnt like being dismantled, llamas and noisy neighbours. His best mate is Terry the Tribble, who is on holiday in the Bahamas.

Richard, 22 going on 7 1/2.

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 21:24:16 GMT

I have a plan. It is a good plan. In fact, it is a great plan.

And I supposedly look like Mick Hucknall, of Simply Red fame.

Just opened my curtains....

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 10:35:31 GMT

Yay! Snow! Yay!

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 22:35:18 GMT

Ask me a question about each of the following:

1. Friends

2. Sex

3. Music

4. Drugs

5. Love

6. Livejournal

No matter how rude, sexual, or confidential. Then post this in your journal and see what questions you get asked!